no use for a name keep them confused

well another day at school then off to work then home to sleep i hate things that are predictable i really do. Everyday the same events school, work, sleep and it all seems the same. thats why i thank God for the random.like dismornin i had to pee (OH THANK GOD I HAD TO FLIPPIN PEE) now you say whats random about that? well i went to bed last night at around 12:30 after talking to a good friend of mine on my phone.then i got to sleep around one(oh the joys of being well rested) and then a curious thing happened at 5:30ish...i had to pee now mind you i wasnt a happy fellow having to walk down the flight of stairs to go to the lavatory but on my way back upstairs after getting a drink and using the bladder emptying station i saw something that i havent seen in a while...the sunrise.it was for a lack of any better to describe it..it was...freakin awesome! now you might say thats predictable and you dont like predictable. BUT i tell you its not predictable how do you predict waking at 5 ungodly 30 to pee? or how do you predict that the sun will come up? we just assume everyday will be the same and the sun and life as we know will go on untouched as usuall.now some people live for the predictable and when something doesnt fit they trip out and hate life. now i have a solution. stop caring if everyone stopped worrying about the big things and the small in the minute problems theyd have more time to see and apreciate the little things and the things that go right.But i also know this is hard for a lot of people. im just now truly learning how to apreciate the little things. But with time i think we could all get the hang of it and learn to apreciate the small.

OH lawd!

this first of all is not a post trying to offend anyone if anyone feels this is about you or you feel offended i apoligize in advance.
I HATE WHINING and I HATE THE DEVIL! but it seems recently its all i see.
The devil seems to really be attacking our youth big surprise its happened for thousands of years but what really makes me mad is that hes winning.
people are getting offended over little things and just what? quitting church?God?
how the heck once youve known God ever decide to just quit God its impossible!
people seem to get stuck on the little things and they dont seem to see the people with the big problems.i mean out of all the people i know i have the most reason to "quit God" i havent talked to my dad in about 3 weeks i live as a christian in a house with 6 gay people and the one i love hates my face. now i ask if i can persevere through that then why does someone giveup when told dont wear that to church we believe its offensive? its a authority issue.if someone says dont then dont out of respect. it doesnt matter you dont have to agree with it but just suck it up and follow leadership.im not in this to play anymore i brokedown and left a chuch service cause i felt that God wasnt doin anything for me. ya know what screw dat Jesus died for me and that should be enough not to mention that hes given me friends to help me through this. I realize that now as a christian i have real friends friends that care. like last night a woman at the resturant i work at choked on a cucumber (please refrain from laughter people im serious) but my friend drove by saw something was hapenin and called to check on me. i mean what da heck? thats a true friend what r the possiblitys that it was me but he didnt care he wanted to make sure his friend was ok. now j.p this text is not about you not at all id like you to know how i feel on the situation. "if it causes someone else to stumble dont do it or youll be held acountable for there actions" also is it really worth it? we dont even need a style now bear with me i put myself in your shoes. my pants cost $55 A PIECE but if someone said they offended them id be pissed yes BUT id do it out of respect. now you werent told not to where them just not to were them to church. if our flesh is dead how do dead people get offended? also how can you witness to people when they ask if your gay?! "no im not gay im saved wanna come to church with me?" but seriously id do anything for you i just want the best and nothing less for you or anyone else . ive just seen to many people get "Offended" and quit and i dont want to see that with you. youve got a gift and id hate to see it go to waste.
I pray for you every nite. and i hope you wont be mad at me.

now back to me my life is pretty screwed up but i dont want pity just prayer and a little understanding for all.
all in love mike

no sleep

well goodmorning maybe? since work and getting a cell phone i dont seem to get sleep anymore. between getting off work and getting fifty calls who has time to sleep.this doesnt in any way help my mood.i mean running on no sleep and putting up with total brainless people doesnt go well. i need prayer.lots and lots of prayer.and grace.

a new day

well havent written in a while but not my fault. Its taken a week to get my school i.d to log in to the computer. dumb it just shows a schools efficiency.
well im adjusting well to a new school. it feels kinda wierd cus its not actually new ive been here before. and my ex-g-friend goes here who is also one of my really good friends.but it feels so akward. other than that my teachers are cool and my grades are good so all is well. my work on the other hand is crazy im now working five days a week. 5-10:30 weekends its 5-11-12 so i get no sleep. but somehow i still manage to live life.well wish i had something interesting to write but i figured id at least give everyone a update to know im still alive.well peace.




love always in
christ mike

change

well just found out last night that ill be changing schools....great.so much change i never seem to settle. now this meens i wont be able to type on here as often as id like. but ill try to keep everyone filled in on my life and may god show me his reasoning for this cause i kno ders gotta be a reason. and all things work for the good of those in christ.

respect?!

sitting in a public school setting and having experienced both homeschooling and private school setting is a big change but the one thing i still see in all of these is lack of respect.It might not be as obvious in a private school setting but its still there in the mumbling and evil glances as the authority figure isnt looking.
But then in this public school setting its more obvious with the language,verbal abuse and sometimes physical.and all this makes me wonder what happened to respect?
in all the previous generations we see that YES they had problems like all people but at least they could deal with them like civilized individuals.But now it seems that we as the "New" generation comes along respect keeps dropping farther and farther down the ladder as individualism and self worth are encouraged more.
i dont mean to say im imune to this. not at all in fact i had just recently been exspressing my "individualism" by wearing black fingernail polish and all black. but then i was rebuked by my leader and he showed me that what i was actually doing besides conforming to the world is that i was hiding my beliefs by showing myself as something else, if anyone would have seen me they wouldnt have said "wow theres something different about that kid maybe hes saved." no they wouldve said " oh my God jimmy stay away from that boy he looks satanic!" and thats not how i want to be seen so out of respect (for my leader and myself) i stopped the black fingernail polish and im trying to put my beliefs out there more. but still i see others who just say "screw authority i can do it myself" who are so blinded that they dont even see that there "individuality" is actually rebellion and therfore the spirit of witchcraft! i just hope and pray that God will somehow open the eyes of the blinded so they can see themselves as who they truly are and have some respect for others and themselves

a songs worth?

another day in school and it just occured to me in my boredom, what does it take for a song to be great? looking at some of the most popular musicians today have lyrics that convey depression,pain and anger whether it be anger towards self or anger towards others. just seeing these lyrics it could be said that what makes lyrics great are the negative things they express.but then your riding down the road and your friend puts in a metal c.d the music is heavy and the lyrics arent even understandable but its awesome.its sounds almost hateful also yet when you read the lyrics there about love, kindness and downright good things. this directly contradicts the earlier statement. so now that we see this what is it that makes a song great. well here i believe is the key 1.emotions are great. when you here a song you can understand and its emotional it moves you.2 when you here a song thats just screaming and unable to understand you like it because its full of energy. 3 but then even songs that have no lyrics are enjoyable because its a feeling you can feel the passion being displayed by the writer/composer. so if you put all this together THATS what makes music great. a song full of passion, energy and lyrics that move your heart to action.these are the kind of songs i want to write. sorry for rambling but i just thought id share this with everyone else.

hello world

hello world! ... well school has finally started back up and ive gotten a part time job. In doing this it dawned upon me ....i have no time for life! i work afternoons when id usually practice and im in school in the morning! BIG SUCK.
im hoping we can do more practice on different days..at different times. but i know everyone else has plans also.