just trying to keep down the death toll

well its been quite a while since ive posted. ive just not had anything to vent or for that matter anything amazing to write about.(now isnt that a surprise)
ive just been busy keeping up on the lyrics blog(www.musicalmeaning.blogspot.com)
and now i guess ill share a little something.
lately my lyrics have really ...well i dont like the word but they have "evolved" so to speak. they have completely changed from "i hate life think ill just quit and die"
to " she hates me i think ill die" to "lifes o.k death might still be better" to finally "something truly deep in meaning can be written here" well i guess you could say my lyrics have matured or grown up. but the reason behind it isnt that the pain and heartbreak is gone(believe me theres always heartbreak) but its because ive realized this: lyrics effect other people ex. to write sad makes people sad
second thing: theres tons of lyrics about heartache.
so finally the conclusion. i want to write deep emotional lyrics without increasing the suicide rate in the state of maryland. i want to write with feelings that others wont exspress. to vent in a way as to let people know my personality with out making them feel im a suicidal wack job....with that said
let the lyrical flow begin.