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this country is going to hell....fast. a blazing fast fireball of death.

Times of Trial.........

Well just got back from a nice “holiday” vacation. And it was great. I sat around at my uncles playing some halo 2 and some miscellaneous star wars games. Then played a board game with him called heroclix and basically just relaxed. Slept in a lot did minimal amounts of work and didn’t stress at all….or did I ?Well actually…. Im a social person and in school is where all my friends are and I can be…well…social. Being away from all that is like taking a lion and sticking him in a little box. Eventually the lion is going to trip out. And sure enough I did…..to all of my friends…one…by one….by one…yeah the thing is is it okay to trip out when they give you enough reason to?

Well I have three friends who I constantly talk to so therefore ill give you three scenarios. One describing each friend and the problem and ill leave them to figure out who’s who.

Scenario #1 One of my best friends has decided to join another band ( this is his second time joining someone else) and in doing so we told him (we being another friend and i) that you cant play in two bands at one time. Then I told him that I would never play on a stage with him…ever. I told my other friend this which gives me

Scenario #2 My other friend told me he also would never play on a stage with him and that we would do something musically really soon….well…Sunday the friend from the first scenario asks #2 to play two secular songs.. and right then he said yes. So without me they play two songs. Which by the way I miss church and not one of my friends calls or texts asking why im not there. So I miss the morning service then my friend asks if im going to the night service I reply I don’t know. But after that I get no reply so I text “when does it start” I get no reply so I miss the night service also.

Now scenario #3 is totally random and not connected to the other two but it’s a friend and Im venting. This friend is a chick and I like her …or sometimes I like her.
See id think by now she would have caught on to the fact that I still like her. But no, every time I talk to her (which is becoming less and less) all she talks about is how she likes all these other guys or how cool they are and how they are the love of her life. or howabout when I go and complain about the friend from scenario #1 she gets all mad and tells me to not speak about him and she gets mad at me. I mean I know she likes him whether she says it or not but she could at least here me out when what im saying is true instead of rubbing in the “your thoughts don’t count” feeling. Its like anything i say means nothing to her anymore and sometimes i cant help but be mad at and hate her for that.

And truly I don’t care If any of my friends read this or are offended. This is MY Blog and im not out to please anyone so if you read and recognize one of the scenarios as you then think about it and see how happy you would be. And if scenario three happens to grace my blog with your presence and actually reads all of this….don’t tell me…I don’t want to know but the least you could do is give me a break and stop rubbing it in all the time.
And to all of these friends…yeah im mad at you all.

the anti-bush?

well let me get rite to the point. President Bush, the president of the united states. a man who has no problem admitting when he is wrong, and is doing his best to run this country. a country so full of different ideals and preferences as to how he should act, what he should say, all the way down to how he should dress. a man running the country who is actually run by the country. under all that pressure and stress he still does his best to run the country with a set of morals and values.
ex:(anti-abortion), he lives a christian lifestyle which of course will influence his actions but he doesnt push them on the country.that was part one.

Part two: greenday the award winning, magazine covering punk band originally from the U.K. now residing in america building up on there millions of dollars by now following the "punk" thing to do. instead of writing songs with any real meaning like there typical old stuff they have resorted to following a trend and being the new anti-bush anti-americans. writing entire c.d's on how much bush is a idiot and america sucks.

Part three: system of a down experimental metal group originally from the middle eastern are(not sure of exact location)also a award winning, and magazine covering band. who is also a anti-war anti-bush band whos songs reflect there dislike of bush and the war.

Part four: these are the same people who hate bush but guess what, did they take the time to vote? or even to find out for themselves what kind of man kerry was? who was pro abortion.(wont get into that its a whole other post) my point being if you hate america move to cuba,afghanistan,iraq or some other anti-human rights country and then if you choose you can say america sucks. but dont experience freedom and live here and say how it sucks to be a multi millionair until you have experienced to non freedoms of a foreign country.
as for the bands i have mentioned I personally will not nor ever will support them now that they have decided to follow such a crappy trend. to be honest its dissapointing that this is what america is going to.

just trying to keep down the death toll

well its been quite a while since ive posted. ive just not had anything to vent or for that matter anything amazing to write about.(now isnt that a surprise)
ive just been busy keeping up on the lyrics blog(www.musicalmeaning.blogspot.com)
and now i guess ill share a little something.
lately my lyrics have really ...well i dont like the word but they have "evolved" so to speak. they have completely changed from "i hate life think ill just quit and die"
to " she hates me i think ill die" to "lifes o.k death might still be better" to finally "something truly deep in meaning can be written here" well i guess you could say my lyrics have matured or grown up. but the reason behind it isnt that the pain and heartbreak is gone(believe me theres always heartbreak) but its because ive realized this: lyrics effect other people ex. to write sad makes people sad
second thing: theres tons of lyrics about heartache.
so finally the conclusion. i want to write deep emotional lyrics without increasing the suicide rate in the state of maryland. i want to write with feelings that others wont exspress. to vent in a way as to let people know my personality with out making them feel im a suicidal wack job....with that said
let the lyrical flow begin.

yep

well this is the new post .... havent posted in a while because i care about passing my school year and it doesnt seem to be working to well. i seem to be passing everything but computer(who wouldve thought?) and geometry.....i hate math and all that resembles math. but anyways a lot of things have been happenin...like ill be starting my own bible study soon and leading it.......time consuming but i guess its worth it....itll keep me challenged.
But anyways.......yeah not much to post just alot of things keeping me busy ....bye.

IM sorry but your not making any sense.

well im kinda frustrated. i think i need new friends cus mine are broken. One of my friends has decided to go to a homecoming dance with a girl instead of a $45.00 vacation to a condo in ocean city with his friends. Sad. Now my other friend insists on telling the other all about when he's talked about. and it makes him fall farther away from his friends. And then theres me stuck in the middle. Neither one wants to listen and neither one is making any sense to me. Sometimes i just wanna give up and get new friends and leave the old ones. Its just frustrating having people who need help but wont listen to help and dont wanna help themselves. Its like a homeless drunk you can give him money but most likely he wont save it for a apartment instead hed rather blow it on his quick fix alchohol. But anyways thats my complaint..........friends need replacement or as my leader sais defraging.well one and all have a beutiful day...full of metal music.

Stress! WHERE!?

well woke up dis morning.....obviously. and oh look its raining oh joy! Did you know that its been scientifically proven that people are more depressed on days when they cant see the sun? Why is that? Why is it that people who have dark inside jobs are more likely to commit suicide? What is it about the sun that makes people so happy i cant seem to understand this because i love it when it rains outside. but people are depressed over a event they cant control . people cant make the sun come out! why is it people seem to always stress over what they cant control?! Leave it alone dont worry God will take care of it! Now i could understand if it was a nonchristian person cause they dont believe in God therefor how do they know hell take care of it? But we as christians dont seem to be able to relax a second without worrying! When everyone else is stressing i feel really out of place because i dont stress like that. now dont get me wrong every now and then i forget and stress the big stuff but never little things.
ive learned that stressing wont do nething but put you in a hospital. and i dont believe thats where id like to be. Now maybe you say to yourself "well he must not have things to stress like i do" well thats wrong also because ive got a llllloooooootttttttt of things that i could stress but if i did then i wouldnt live to be 25. thats why we have all these people having breakdowns and divorces and killing people they cant handle stress.But still if we christians believe what we say we believe then dont worry Gods handling tomorow not you.